thinking recklessly

I cherish every moment with you, you have my heart.

Who did you last have over your house, why were they there?
dorm, and nishi is currently here.

What was the last thing to piss you off?
tori being a stupid hoe, and madi being a crazy bitch.

Recently, who in your house has gotten on your nerves the most?
dorm, madi, my roommate who took pictures of illegal things in my closet and turned it in.

What all has pissed you off today, if anything at all?
absolutely nothing at all :)

Out of all of your friends who have you gotten in the worst fight with?
umm i don’t really get in big fights with people and then stay friends with them. lol.

Who was the last person to have to deal with you having an attitude?
umm. probably malcolm. but I’m pretty mild mannered these days so its not too bad.
 
If you had $100 dollars, how would you spend it?
buy presents.

What’s something you would love to have happen right now?
madi to move the fuck out.

You were given the opportunity to get a new cellular device, what do you choose?
a new exclusive iPhone? idk. i like my iPhone 4

Which of your classes in school is most capable of killing a good mood for you?
definitely chemistry. we’re not friends.

How nice of a person are you, honestly?
honestly, I’m an overly nice person, as long as you don’t screw me over.

What good things have happened today?
i woke up, got myself to class, went to the beach with malc, got cookiewiches, then we went to chemistry, which wasn’t that bad.

Is there anyone of your prefered sex who tends to mess with your head?
more than you could imagine. not so much lately though :)

What have you recently gotten the most compliments on?
ummm… idk. my toms?

Do and your best friend(s) act the same, or are very different from eachother?
ummm. bonnie and i are similar, yet very different. we balance each other out. sav and i are sensible together, and shit show together. nish and i are down for anything together/shit show.

On a scale of 1 to 10 how shy are you?
4?

Is there something you should be doing right now, besides this survey?
oh so much.

Who was the last person you made plans with?
umm. we don’t plan things. we just do.

What would your last name be if you were married to the last person that texted you?
probably howard.

Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
yep.

Ever physically fought with member of the opposite sex?
not for reals.

Ever walked in on your friends having sex?
umm, i don’t think so.

Ever kissed a friend’s crush?
crush at the time, no. that was stupid.

How was your day overall?
glorious.

Has anyone ever called cops on you?
umm, yes actually. not just me though.

Do you swallow gum when you’re finished?
eww. i try not to.

Ever had a best friend of the opposite sex?
yes.

Is there anyone that doesn’t like you?
oh yeah. my bitch roommate. she hates me and sav. tori probably hates me too. she wants my man.

Does your Facebook password have to do with a person?
nope.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
malcs bed.

What’s your current problem?
noneeeeeeeeeeeeeee. we won.

If something was wrong who is the first girl you would go to?
depends on what it was about, but if it was something occurring here at school, sav and nish.

Can you play pool?
i cannnnn…..

Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
umm, coffee. i drink alcohol too, only when I’m either really happy or upset though. haha. bad.

Do you have a member of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
umm, most things yes.

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn’t around now?
absolutely.

Could you cry right now?
nope. nothing to cry about :)

Did your parents spoil you as a child?
nope. compared to my siblings yes, but no.

Have you ever had alcohol poisoning?
hmmm. how sick do you have to be to consider it alcohol poisoning?

Any plans for tomorrow?
homework, tan, hopefully see malcs momma.

How long does it take for you to take a shower?
at least 20 minutes.

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
most likely

Ever thrown up in public?
oh yeah.

When was the last time you cried?
ummm idk actually.

Miss anything/anyone?
my momma. my sister. my babies.

Pretending to “never get the text” from someone who annoys you. Is that you?
no. i just didn’t text you back. sorry.

Do any of your friends dislike each other?
no, or maybe. idk really.

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
yes :)

Has anyone lain on your bed besides you?
practically all of my friends.

Do you prefer being called your actual name or a nick name?
tess. by friends. baby, baby doll, yes i am cheesy.

What bothers you more, when people lie or when people complain?

lie.

Connection between you and the last girl who text messaged you?
best roommate ever!! (sav not madi)

Are you a morning person or a night person?
both actually.

How’s 2012 been for you?
eventful, to say the least.

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
not everyone.

Do you ever write in pencil?
i enjoy that.

Are you anything like you were at this point last year?
no, not really at all.

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
yes.

What does your hair look like now? 
alright, straight, kinda messy. i went to the beach today. don’t judge.

Will you be single over winter?
i hope not, but who knows. thats a long time from now.

Has someone ever made a promise to you and broke it?
duh.

This time last year, do you remember who you liked?
of course.

Have you ever kissed anyone who’s name started with a J?
eww yes.

Where is the person you last kissed at this moment?
umm, maybe on a bike ride. maybe surfing. idk.

What do the majority of people in your life call you?
Tess. or Tessa.

Was your last text message from a girl or boy?
girl.

Think of the last person you said I love you to, did you mean it?
hmph yes.

Last person you talked to for more than an hour?
probably sav.

When was the last time you were out of state for more than a day and why?
umm last summer in cancun with bonnie <3

Did you sleep alone Friday night?
no, no i did not.

Anything good happening tomorrow?
malcs mamma :)

What’s wrong with you right now?
absolutely nothing. these questions are kinda repetitive.

If you could move somewhere else, where would it be?
Costa Rica.

Does anyone call you babe?
yesssssssomg.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
ahah. like 20 minutes ago. madi.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
kinda. lol.

Relationships or one night stands?
relationships.

Do you know someone who is CONSTANTLY texting?
ummm actually no.

What do you currently hear right now?
marleys music.

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
yes, very much so.

Have you ever cried from being so mad?
yeppers.

If something was wrong, who is the first male you would go to?
malcolmjack.

Did you ever want to be a doctor?
yeah. thats too hard though.

Are you happy with the choices you’ve made?
for the most part yes.

Who was the last person you high-fived?
umm, actually i think i high fived malc last night.

Have you done anything sneaky lately?
ahahahahahahaha. yes. I’m disappointed in what I’ve become. actually I’m not though.

Are you dressing up for Halloween this year?
i live in isla vista. need i say more?

Would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
sleep over.

Do you remember who you liked three months ago?
shmalcolmmm.

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
hahaha. eminem reminds me of my sister.

How was last night?
stressful. but it ended next to my baby. 

If you could change your eye color would you?
probably to green.

Is there anyone that you would do absolutely everything for?
absolutely.

Are you dating the last person you talked to?
umm savanna, no. unfortunately. ha.

Who was the last person you talked to in person?
savvy.

What are you sitting on right now?
on mah beddd.

Can you have more than one best friend?
yep. you connect with people in different ways.

Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?
yeah. a lot. 

How many pairs of Converse do you own?
none.

What do you want to get accomplished today/tonight?
learn everything i need to know for my geog midterm.

Will you have a boyfriend/girlfriend in 6 months?
umm. possibly.

Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
male.

Are you a cuddler?
omg yes.

Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
hmm probably not. haha.

Do you have any sisters?
two sissys.

Do you have a bestfriend?
yes, everyone needs at least one.

Have you ever slept in a tent, indoors or out?
yesss.

What were you doing at 2am?
trying to sleep.

Would you ever quit a bad habit for someone?
yeah. its a bad habit, why not?

Have you ever fell asleep in someones arms?
several times.

Given your all to someone who later walked away?
not yet.

What are you thinking about?
if I’m on the right track.

Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you?
yess. my brother.

Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?
not really.

What time did you wake up today?
8:30. ughh

What did you do Friday?
well, that was yesterday. i went to class, beach with malc, class, lunch, friends, then went out and shit went down.

Where is the biggest scar on your body?
hmmm on my foot i guess.

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
love.

Why aren’t you dating the last person you texted?
i am.

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?
yes.

When is the next time you’ll see your best friend?
sav, she’s here with me. bonnie, summer :(

Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn’t want to be with?
yes.

Is there anyone you want to come see you?
i guess.

Anyone you would like to get things straight with?
oooooooh yeah. that bitch tori. although i literally JUST found out she’s slightly insane and no one wants to date her anyways. hahaha.

Think relationships are worth getting your heart shattered?
not at all.

Have more guys or girls for friends?
girls.

Would you rather your partner have gorgeous eyes or a gorgeous smile?

umm. i can’t pick. when you’re with someone you tend to think everything about them is gorgeous.

Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes?
cigs, yes.

Have you ever hugged a complete stranger?
probably.

Last text of the opposite sex that messaged you last?
malcolmclarkjack

Does it make you mad when people stare at you? 
umm,no?

How do you feel right now?
so tired.

When’s the last time you had a headache? 
last sunday.

Is the person you last texted single?
not really.

What was the first thing you thought this morning?
i love waking up to you smiling.

Would you skydive for $400? 
duh.

Would you shave your head for $500?
maybe.

What time is it right now where you live?
1:50 pm. but i started this yesterday. haha.

Was it a boy or a girl to text you first today?
i think a boy. idk the number is not one i am familiar with.

Are you easily scared by horror movies?
eh. no.

Does someone like you right now?
yeah.

Are you friends with any of your ex boyfriend/girlfriends?
i hope so.

Are you anyone’s first love?
yes.

Are you looking forward to anything?
sleeping.

Have you ever worn the opposite sex’s clothing?
yes.

Do you miss someone?
all the time.

Is there anybody who truly disgusts you? 
madi and matt. and tori. she’s a true hoe.

Next time you will kiss someone?
today sometime. probably when malc comes home.

If your ex said they hated you, what would you say?
hmm. thats sad.

Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about your feelings?
nobody. i don’t like feelings.

When did your last hug take place and with who?
anisha this morning in the bathroom.

How many months until your next birthday?
12 :(

vent.

why are you so disgusting. stop popping his pimples, and squeezing puss out of his toes. he is a big boy, he can cut his own toe nails. 

your voice makes me want to jump out the window.

stop eating other peoples bars. stop making out in front of everyone. and smacking your lips so loudly that the neighbors can hear. stop letting your boyfriend sleep over every. single. night.

also, you’re not as skinny as you think.

Words.

Hearing I love you. So amazing.

I wish I could explain my shit show of a life.
It’s so. Almost. Perfect. But still so far from it. And I’m not quite sure where it’s headed. Right now we’re just stuck.
But I’m too happy with the moments I get to let it go.

<3

I am in love with his mother.
What a remarkable person.
I’m incredibly lucky.

I like to watch things progress. To just observe them as they build up into something very real. I like to watch them become so real, so serious, so involved, and still not have a name.

It’s an interesting phenomenon. To just watch, ignoring where you both know you’re headed. And to let it happen anyways.