i have the worst feeling. i don’t know why. actually, i do know why. its a combination of things. i hate when people are arrogant and pretentious. I’m sorry I’m not as smart as you, mr. “you were really considering switching to pass/fail? this is probably one of the easier classes you’re going to take” shut the fuck up, okay? just because i didn’t go...
i finally figured it out. i want to have you. i want you to be there. i want it to work. i don’t want to lose my best friend. i want to be in this beautiful place with you. enjoying every second of life. i want to help you when you need me, i want you to be there for me when i have my days. because to know that you have someone like that, is the most reassuring feeling I’ve...
Soooooooo we were going to pick up Abe, but Jacob forgot the car keys. So I’m laying here in the sun waiting for him to come back. Oh Sunday’s. I was supposed to write a paper. And read a book. Boo. Not happening. I hate week days. I can’t wait till Thursday.
so, i guess theres kind of a lot going on here. college is good. summer school is over in 2 weeks. it flew by. amazing. i got my room assignment today for fall. on the wellness floor. yay. but in a triple room… eh. i guess we’ll see how that works out. i just really, really hope i like the two girls ill be in a tiny room with. i was excited to find out, but now that we all know...
You’re getting a little better at this.
should be writing papers.
but I’m not. at least i wrote one. 2 more to go. and lots, and lots, of reading. so i had my first midterm yesterday. not as bad as i thought it would be. but still challenging. i really really hope i at least get a B in that class. greek mythology is ridiculous. so despite today being tuesday (my day loaded with classes from 9:30am-6:00pm), it was a pretty good day. i didn’t eat...
There’s just something about laying in silence with a friend, that’s better than laying in silence by yourself.
studying for midterms sucks. especially because i was irresponsible and messed around all day yesterday and left all my studying for today. from now on, i will study frequently and know the basics of what I’m doing instead of leaving it all to be learned in one day. and no more partying on important weekends, when i should be studying. and no more letting friends take 12 shots in 1 hour. ...
this. is. the. worst. i wish things were different. but they’re not. trust is like a piece of paper. once you rip it up and throw it to the wind, you’ll never get all the pieces back.
early weekend contemplations.
soooooo i just had lunch. I’m done with classes for the day. which is really nice. i have allllllll day to do whatever the hell i want. all day. the whole day. so ill probably go to the Rec. Cen. later. after i go to the gym to talk to the coach about getting a job. thats cool i guess. then ill go to dinner. then ill go to some informational thing for one of my classes, then ill have to...
i just typed a whole fricken thing, then went to post it, and it all disappeared. i guess it wasn’t meant to be. i give up.
Did you really follow me, and then unfollow me?
stop being nice to me.
i do not go in your room to talk to you, or see you. when i talk, its not to you. when i say goodnight, you’re not supposed to respond. because I’m not saying it to you. and stop holding doors open for me by the way.
college was great. for about 2 weeks. i loved it. it was perfect. i loved the people. but thats because i knew them even less than i do now. i seriously just miss home right now. this is homesickness. me blogging about home. pathetic. but i have no choice, because i just want to talk about home. don’t get me wrong. i love ucsb. its awesome. great people. great weather. good classes. great...